When you get into a new relationship, it’s crazy how quickly you realise why it never worked out with anyone else before…
Nick was a similar age to me. We’d known each other since school and briefly dated in college after I came out of a long term relationship. I’d love to say it was then that I knew he was the one but things never got serious as we were at different stages of our lives and both wanted different things.
I settled down and got married. Nick moved 100 miles away and started a new life.
We’d vaguely kept in touch but never in a particularly romantic way, until last year. We began talking more and over time it became clear that something was there. It was obviously not ideal with me still being married and I knew until that changed I couldn’t let anything happen.
My marriage already felt broken beyond repair but as time went on, it only reassured me that my decision to walk away was the right one.
It wasn’t necessarily because of Nick. Or maybe it was, but not in that way you think. It certainly was never about an ‘affair’ or because I thought the grass was greener. He just opened my eyes and made me see that the life I had was not the life I wanted. Ultimately, I know my decision would have been the same.
A little over 12 months since the split and 8 months since my divorce was finalised (divorced by 22 – I know right!), things are better than ever. A few holidays, a move back to Devon and countless selfies later, Nick and I are living together and working on building our future.
It was never my intention for things to turn out the way they did, but I can’t say I regret any of the choices I’ve made. I believe that everything happens for a reason, and every person in your life is meant to be there.
I truly believe that Nick was supposed to come to me at that exact moment and bring the light back to my life. I know that it was Nick who was supposed to see me through the toughest of times and I know that it will always be him. Every time.